(caption: at the cold greenhouse in Lisbon)

These past few days have been quite insightful, even though this does not necessarily mean something as uplifting and peaceful as it may sound - specialy for an analytical mind, like mine. I do like puzzling my way out of ideas and problems, but, sometimes, I get stuck in the middle, not knowing what is right (for me). Unfortunately, until I do, until I puzzle it, I'm left feeling restless, because it's not clear, because I "don't know". 

  

One of the ideas I have been battling with is the notion of Acceptance vs Change. If, on one hand, we should accept ourselves and life as it comes, flaws and all, carrying on with a carefree perspective. On the other, we can and should change things we're not happy about, things we want to improve, things we consider faulty in some way.
So, my question is: Where do we draw the line? How do we know what is deemed unacceptable enough that we should work to transform? Or what can be considered  faulty, yet beautiful enough to keep? 

What are your thoughts on this?

With love,

Teresa.

Long time no see, uh?

I don't really know how to start this post, to be honest. I'm struggling to find the words amongst the thoughts and emotions. Let's simplify: I feel like writting again, and sharing again - sharing more than before, actually. 

 For a long time I was holding back online, secluding myself, worrying about what people would think, how they would perceive my thoughts, my life and, ultimately, myself as an individual. Although I'm very transparent as a person and wear my heart on my sleeve, I would convince myself that anything besides my photographs didn't really matter to anyone, so I would limit the sharing and the exposure to an acceptable minimum, sharing only what I thought to be just about enough. 

I do like my privacy, that won't change, so I don't think I'll ever be one of those share-my-entire-life-in-minutious-detail type of blogger. But I do feel like I could share more, I know that there are people who want me to (Kosma and Olya, always there for me), and I think it would be beneficial for me, at the end of the line. 

 I've been feeling luminous the past few days, completely open to life's wonders and mischiefs. It feels like the year is just starting, blossoming. It feels like dawn.

Welcome back to this blog. 

Teresa Q.


( Caption: Lisbon's sky, at Cais do Sodré. )